I am super frustrated today. I don’t understand why. Maybe it is a down from a full week of mingling. I got a lot of work done and should be mining my next contracts but I am drained. I am overdosing on lunch AND dinner at the restaurant. My brain is fried and I have a migraine so I’ll do it this weekend. Time for some TV.

Last night I celebrated four joyful years of dating my sweet Bearded DiCaprio. The fact that he hates that nickname doesn’t phase me. For a long time my friend Natalya always asked why I had a picture of Leonardo DiCaprio on my cellphone. It wasn’t DiCaprio! We’ve never had a fight so maybe we will fight about this LOL He took me to Bocaccino’s, which has dissapeared and turned into a Carmine’s. I don’t know if that’s a good business strategy… I am talking about Carmine’s copying a famous (and delicious) New York restaurant in Montreal and calling it by the same name without any official affiliation. Regardless, the food was great. I’m not really picky, I was just overjoyed that my angel hair pasta was al-dente and that they had big bottles of San Pellegrino. It’s cute how waiters come around a lot when they realize we are gossipping about kinky sex. Three years ago we had a naughty conversation on the table butcher paper at Jack Astor’s and simply left it there for our waiter.

We went to the sex shop to check out stuff. It was close by. I looked at the lingerie (because I am planning on getting/making myself a cat suit. Hey, I look like this ) ( instead of this ( ) now so if I want a cat suit, I am getting a cat suit just like Alyssa Nicole’s Halloween outfit!!! I realized that La Senza has more taste and wayyyy better quality for the money. I am always curious to see what they come up with as far as sex toys go. I now get the feeling that sex toys are designed by people who have knowledge of anatomy, which is great! However, lots of things look like they are packaged for teenagers… it’s odd… but cute! Alas, even with the added competition, most toys are still overpriced for the use I would make of them (Rose & Passion is the only adult store for miles and that shows in the pricing!) I love how my friends are generous with the feedback on the toys they buy and use because my toy budget is 28$ a year. I am trying to remember… What was the last thing I bought myself in a Sex Shop? Must have been one of those bullets that you plug into the base unit. My sex toy box is still in my old room and I moved upstairs 3 months ago! Even worse, a few weeks ago I took the batteries out of my vibrator to power my cordless mouse. Still have not bought new batteries… I have been a very bad self-lover! I sincerely think it is normal to masturbate and I wonder what it means that I don’t care to do it anymore. It happened when I stopped having pain (six weeks ago) and my brain started to go into overdrive. My drastically lowered sex drive is starting to concern me. It could also have something to do with my weight loss or my falling head over heels for Mr. M. It’s just strange to get sidetracked from something I have taken for granted for years. It’s like I’d rather be thinking or writing. I have become a mental masturbator!!!

But I shouldn’t feel sorry for myself. Perhaps I have been a bad ‘self-lover’, but I feel VERY loving towards those that are close to me (or I can go medieval on them whatever their preference may be.) I’ve done a lot of mingling and playing this week and today is the only day where I do not have one or two dates. I am alone until Yoshi comes over tomorrow morning to make me breakfast. I am really looking forward to that <3

Oh and I am watching Rome even though there are bits missing in the shows… What can I do, I want to see it so bad!

Have a lovely weekend!